Happy May
May 3, 2017 11:16 amHi lovely readers.
It’s been a while since I posted here hasn’t it. I checked in to the Consciously Healthy website and blog today and it made my heart a bit sad that the last post was in February! So I thought I’d pop in to say hello.
I’ve taken some time out from writing during the last few months. It hasn’t been planned, but back in February/ March, after an especially tough couple of years, things came to a head and I went through a bit of a dark night of the soul. I wanted to allow my emotions to come up, and work through a few things, whilst giving myself the space to do so. It all felt so messy, and aside from instinctively wanting to retreat a little, I didn’t even know where to start in sharing anything.
One of the lessons I’ve learned over the last few years, is to embrace when this kind of thing happens. Although it can be incredibly uncomfortable and challenging (and scary) it is healthy to feel. After all, emotions are part of being human. The dark and the light. Especially when you have been through really tough times, it has to come out, otherwise it just stays stuck in the body.
For me, the intense emotion and sadness passed within a few weeks, but then I found myself in a place where I needed to recalibrate a bit. So much has happened this last few years, that I reached a point where I looked back and felt a bit shell shocked.
During the last 18 months I have discovered a lot about my own health situation and I’ve decided to put together a little 2 – 3 part blog post about all of this. I’ve started working on it, and hope it will be with you soon. I’m just taking my time with writing it as it feels like a big post to share and a personal one too. Putting it all into words feels like a mammoth task, especially when I’m only just starting to make sense of things myself.
I really hope you are all doing okay and enjoying the lovely May season wherever in the world you may be. In England, everywhere looks especially beautiful at the moment. It’s all so lush and green, and there are so many flowers in bloom.
This weekend I stood under the most amazing blossom tree, there was literally a carpet of petals beneath my feet. I love how I notice things like this now ~ nature, flowers, a pretty view or sunny day. For so many years I didn’t see the beauty all around me, because I was so busy and focused on rushing from one place to the next. This is one of the (many) hidden blessings of living with a chronic illness and being forced to slow life right down.
Anyway, for now, I shall leave this post here.
Sending you all lots of love,
Thanks for still being here 🙂
Emma x
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6 Comments
I’m glad to read your writings again Emma. I can very much relate to this blogpost myself. 2016 has been a very rough year for me and into 2017. I love what you wrote about things being so difficult to put into words as your are trying to make sense of them yourself. This is exactly what I’ve been writing in my own journal! There are so many emotions, realizations, etc that are difficult for us to wrap our heads around isn’t there? And especially trying to relate these to others.
Blessings and I hope things balance out for you soon.
Tammy
Hi Emma thanks for this update – I know you’ve had a tough time lately and i agree with Tammy too that 2016 was just an awful year – for me personally too.
But I know you have so many tools now to help you deal with it – and I too have learned so much over the years and we continue to learn and develop our compassion and understanding for ourselves and others.
The lovely early summer weather will hopefully be with us soon and yes nature is looking as great as ever! You look really great in that picture too, thanks for this update 🙂
Hi Tammy,
Thanks for sharing your own experience and for being so supportive of the blog and my writing too. You are right, it’s so difficult to make sense of what going on inside of us, without even knowing where to start explaining to anyone else. This is why its important to look after ourselves best we can, and take our time with things.
Sending lots of love your way,
Emma x
Hi Warren.
Thanks as always for checking in and saying hi! 2016 seemed to be a tough year for quite a lot of people didn’t it? Lets hope as the Summer comes, it will be a turning point for us all.
Emma 🙂
Dear
Emma, thank you for sending this and the comments with it too from Tammy and Warren.
2016 was not good for so many of us so let’s look forward now to better times.
It is so good of you to post and I always look forward to receiving them.
Sunshine brings hope much more easily than rain and dark nights and mornings, so this spring has been awesome.
Take good care of yourself my lovely, lovely friend. xxxx
Thanks so much for such a lovely reply Susan. Your support means a lot. Sending a big hug to you xxx