Happy MayMay 3, 2017 11:16 am
Hi lovely readers.
It’s been a while since I posted here hasn’t it. I checked in to the Consciously Healthy website and blog today and it made my heart a bit sad that the last post was in February! So I thought I’d pop in to say hello.
I’ve taken some time out from writing during the last few months. It hasn’t been planned, but back in February/ March, after an especially tough couple of years, things came to a head and I went through a bit of a dark night of the soul. I wanted to allow my emotions to come up, and work through a few things, whilst giving myself the space to do so. It all felt so messy, and aside from instinctively wanting to retreat a little, I didn’t even know where to start in sharing anything.
One of the lessons I’ve learned over the last few years, is to embrace when this kind of thing happens. Although it can be incredibly uncomfortable and challenging (and scary) it is healthy to feel. After all, emotions are part of being human. The dark and the light. Especially when you have been through really tough times, it has to come out, otherwise it just stays stuck in the body.
For me, the intense emotion and sadness passed within a few weeks, but then I found myself in a place where I needed to recalibrate a bit. So much has happened this last few years, that I reached a point where I looked back and felt a bit shell shocked.
During the last 18 months I have discovered a lot about my own health situation and I’ve decided to put together a little 2 – 3 part blog post about all of this. I’ve started working on it, and hope it will be with you soon. I’m just taking my time with writing it as it feels like a big post to share and a personal one too. Putting it all into words feels like a mammoth task, especially when I’m only just starting to make sense of things myself.
I really hope you are all doing okay and enjoying the lovely May season wherever in the world you may be. In England, everywhere looks especially beautiful at the moment. It’s all so lush and green, and there are so many flowers in bloom.
This weekend I stood under the most amazing blossom tree, there was literally a carpet of petals beneath my feet. I love how I notice things like this now ~ nature, flowers, a pretty view or sunny day. For so many years I didn’t see the beauty all around me, because I was so busy and focused on rushing from one place to the next. This is one of the (many) hidden blessings of living with a chronic illness and being forced to slow life right down.
Anyway, for now, I shall leave this post here.
Sending you all lots of love,
Thanks for still being here 🙂