Seven Year Cycles
February 13, 2017 5:49 pmToday is seven years exactly, to the day, that I relapsed and became sick again after believing I had made a full recovery from ME/CFS. 17 years in total I’ve been on this journey with chronic illness. It feels surreal even acknowledging that.
13th Feb 2010, was the day it all came crashing down. Again.
Although on reflection, I was actually slowly getting seriously unwell (but was in absolute denial) for a period of time before that day.
The last seven years have bought with them, the biggest challenges of my life so far without a doubt. But they have also taught me lessons I wouldn’t have learned without the deeply painful experiences I have had. I feel like I am a completely different person to the 27 year old who stepped onto that cruise ship seven years ago today, blissfully unaware of what lay ahead.
This year, as this Anniversary comes round I feel reflective, but mostly I feel grateful for all that I have learned and the person I have become as a result of all of this. I want nothing more than to completely regain my health, and will continue to do what it takes to work towards that. But today I am acknowledging the progress I have made and the parts of myself that I have healed. The inner work I have been forced to do, has connected me back to myself and will change how I choose to live the rest of my life.
It is said, that there is a natural shift in energy every seven years. I am really feeling that this year. Rather than dwelling on the past (which is what I usually end up doing on these kinds of anniversaries) I feel more as if I am stepping into a new phase. Letting go and releasing the past as I do so.
I’ve linked in a blog post below that I wrote last year, about why I believe I got sick again and the life changing lessons I have learned as a result. It is the most viewed post on my site, and one that I thought those of you who are new here would appreciate me re posting. It speaks about ‘that day’ seven years ago when my world was completely turned upside down, and lots, lots more.
Ive popped a link to the post here for those of you who fancy a read…
Emma x
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4 Comments
Three years for me next week, the 21st. My second time too, after recovering fully!
I fell off the crazy hamster wheel of my life and couldn’t get back on.
I, too, am hugely grateful for what has happened to me, though I wouldn’t have said that three years ago!
I’m so sure that allowing it to be and not fighting is the road to recovery, or at least a new life.
Keep blogging Emma. It’s good to know that you too are on the road to recovery.
Hi Marjie,
Its all a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions isn’t it. I am grateful for what I have learned, but I definitely still have days where I get frustrated/upset/angry with the situation too. Hoping your anniversary can greet you in the way mine has this year, with renewed hope and a gentle gratitude for what you have learned. One step at a time for all of us!
Lots of love, Emma x
Hey Emma! I was out walking and i realized I had not read your blog in a while… so here I am haha. 🙂
This week is 6 years for me since I first got ill. Anniversaries usually brings a bunch of emotions one way or another. This year I was on my way back from the grocery store carrying full bags and I just stopped and said out loud: “Holy s**t! It’s 6 years? 6 years?!!” It just felt so surreal saying it haha.
That seven year energy shift sure sounds lovely. Hope you had one of the good days today! 🙂
Hi Henrik!
I’m still here don’t you worry Really is touching to know you guys notice when I’m a little quiet though.
I’ve been taking a bit of a break from writing these past few weeks, for reasons I shall share soon enough I’m sure, but I’m definitely only on a temporary hiatus. I love this space and all of my readers 🙂
As for anniversaries, they can really evoke emotions can’t they. Crazy how fast time can pass, but also how in other ways it seems a life time too?!
It’s 16 years now since my initial diagnoses which I can’t believe. 16 years?!
Hope you are doing as well as possible along your own healing path Henrik.
Loads of love,
Emma x